*** LOG OPENED: Wed Dec 30 18:03:08 1998 --- Participants: disabled ChanServ (nanook@eskimo.com) Lily Kark Mooooooo (azdse@uswest.net) PeR0XiDe atrpilot Ais Lonewolf suze Woz --- ok i cant seem to hit the w key... ready?? heh i am lol its contagious but... i have called this meeting 2 night for yuall to wish me HAPPY NEW YEAR and send as much money as possible!!!!!! at end, suze, sure lol charlie lol lol i always give up on cleanin out my closet, cuz i usually have nowhere else to put the stuff heh I thought tonight we would clean out our closets me tooP our emotional baggage from last year some have improved some gotten worse etc yes quess that means i got to go a change of the year is often a time when one reviews the past year and frequently becomes depressd unmet expectations, that sort of thing yes, i can feel some of that anyone have any earth shattering experiences? o god heh i am not where i would like to be with certain parts of my life emotional baggage from last year ... how so suze i got a migrane from it when i let that out wasnt much fun well...I'm still by myself, that is, I'm not in a relationship and i really want to be *** haa has joined #disabled-RT any prospects? same here.... yes, there is someone but hasn't gone anywhere yet how old are u suze *** wacky has joined #Disabled-RT only girls that seem to like me always end up bein under 18 tho :/ i think that that is the one area of my life that i am frustrated with 36 i love you hon Mine brought me to this group this year, thank you all how old are u perox 19 ur welcome Karen WOLFIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *** anny1 has joined #disabled-RT and because of my age, i am more concerned about wanting to marry and start a family while i stlll can thx charlie is it someone that lives close you to you sue? biological clock ticking i thought you were married, suze? my biological clock yes no, mooo yes, he lives in my city what about your health suze that's a bonus then I wish i could have kids yeah, airfare is less it has improved somewhat since a year ago *** Driveshaf has joined #disabled-RT i am lucky, i found my soulmate, here on channel i am ok with my progress what about u perox :) lily me? ok i guess You know I used to be very hung up on the ticking b clock but I think that is passing your health this year it's really the relationship that seems to be the only piece missing from my life would you like mine Brian? :):):) jk lol, no wacky:) only got bronchitus 1 time this year good i am happy with everything else in my life we have several romances that started in here this year me too Suze actually derek wld be easy helen carla wld be the hard one im so happy, i glow like Mooooooo my deppression came back once this year, then went away.. and laura and lil and wacky :)))))))))) did we help any? heh with us??? lol best thing abt this year... I am not afraid of disabled ppl any more no.. its mostly caused by my dad yes wacky me too u were afraid of D? why? I'm sorry perox is everything better yeah and... good per i stopped smokin pot and ais got married :) great news :)) I never thought I would ever look to other disabled people for help befor this year, is that stupid or what :) yes sue I was forced to live in a world where Dis was a taboo subject.... u fear that which u do not understand dony hi wanna share your good or bad this year *** In has joined #Disabled-RT karen it was actually smart idea i found this channel this past year :) *** kermsmom has joined #disabled-RT that's been a great thing for me and the icing on my cake was lily i'm thinking so ppl here have helped each other?? everyone tat found and loves disabled this year makes us all feel warm and happy amen sweety Smart that I turned to other dis, stupid that I thought I shouldn't kark: no, alot of ppl think that way, its just dependant on the way u look at things.... how is someone sposed to help you, if they arent disabled, and they have no idea what you are going through> yes very intuitive perox :) hehe but I guess I did some growing up karen u hit nail on head thanie I've seen people really change this year u didm kark i am glad to ave survived my mother-in-laws move to my city and glad to have found this group like you kark have u sis? yes you are more open now and suze so are you :) thanks, (for the good I hope) i have seen judi change yes, that's true yes yes im open, jus usually get this thought that no one wants to hear it, so i dun talk about it much,, she more willing to turn to ppl for help hate to pick on laura but she really has changed a lot yes bri i guess we all have grownm perox-always want to hear *** Driveshaf has left #disabled-RT heh okie remember how angry she was when she first came? who? and I bet moooooo dont think i am a hot head any more lol *** Driveshaf has joined #disabled-RT laura mutual admiration Society *** kermsmom has left #disabled-RT now she is very happy heh i have new best friend in judi, and new best man in wacky:))) awwwww hehe I want to share something with you I learned how to trust agian wy I changed the topc o er ok did u bri?? a member described to me flashbacks of a car accident while grasping for help-she literally could not go on channel and say I need help another has an accident anniversary coming up and she is having flashbacks anyone here have a problem with that? YES ever yr i dont.... *** In has left #Disabled-RT please explain for us ?? brian every year I relive my injury the time around it every detail ok how many of u ar disabled due to accidents? me i am in part charlie? from when i left house to what i did to the incident and the last thing I felt brian, what made youtrust again??? but i dont see the reason behind accident anniversaries, when all you want to do is forget what happened, why put urself through the torment of that every year? whats wrong with just trying to forget? me ok guys how long as it been wacky? I hope that we all can feel comfortable to let it out when they need too can u just forget? some things you never forget 14 yrs i can... but im not saying everyone can forget or repress? brian, what made youtrust again??? forget P? probably mean repress oh when that happens it follows you so lets clean out the closet this year I cant mine was two day be4 my 15 b-day and mine is lil diff than most mine is from abuse ok.. for those of us with disease related disabilities does this time of year make you review? not an issue for me, mine is due to illness Sure it does actually lily it was ui and judy and most of all laura yes, i have anniversary, mar 1st im kinda lost.. dony what about you ps: tina thinks the world of judi why perox heh what are we talking about? thanks max but tina is part of why I picked this subject 8 long years this time of year makes everyone reflect on your accomplishments of defeats since accident dony? no flash backs or not of true karen o 1991 nm heh Heidi I know you suffered a big loss this year i c now.. long time dony u know what was best abt this year?? I met my 1 sister for the first time in 14 yrs yup yes judi and a very happy occassion *** Secrets has joined #disabled-rt feels longer debi we are reviewing :o) she was only 14 mos old at the time of the incident I celebrate New Years on Superbowl Sunday so I get over the Post Christmas blues before I allow myself to set net years goals good idea *** suze has left irc (suze) the best part for me was meeting judi and wacky Noone I know understands that come on daniel you have had big change karen I picked a new day for my bday anny what about u Thats next ok anny? Debi what about u? what is the ? yes well i have a habbit of holding all of my feelings inside, i dont cry at funerals, when some1 i know dies, i dont feel bad about it, but im not happy either, i just kind of feel numb, and hold the feelings in, until it all gets built up, and then my temper gets shorter, i end up havin a fight with someone over nothing, and then i let it out, thats part of why im deppressed, and thats why they call it chronic deppression, because its not a constant changes in past year and then it all comes back i am happy that i survived my mother-in-law's move to my town its been a tough year, big changes, loss of walking and bearing my weight, wheelchair, stuff like that perox you can talk to me anytime lol, anny understand anny judi listens good very good very good can I say something ?? and theres no cure for it, the drugs the doctors give me dont help, if they do, my body gets a tolerance against it, and they take me off of it, illegal drugs seemed to help, when instead they were just covering it up sure judi this for u Peroxide I will listen too yes wacky thanks :) :) what wacky i am so proud of u have learned u dont always have to be the one helping and that it is ok to need to lean on someone he typing Debi you have suffered a big loss i type slow thanks brian hehe welcome mamma wacky: ull get faster, i went from 30 wpm to 80 this year :) *** ^Raven^ has joined #disabled-rt I went to disney for vacation and I think it might be my last vacation on my feet but I really am happy :o) just trying to deal with it and having my family ok. I worry about my husband mostly, the cost is awful and we have no insurance with his brand new job Debi I kno but they don't would you share your atitude with everyone? oh Karen per i am fast if u realize i type with one hand and that i am a quad well, I feel that no matter what, I cannot let myself get down yes bri I like what u told me Mandy said wacky, u type much faster than me I want to relearn to write and I have a dream to get to Washington and walk on the beach and Paint one last picture! wow didnt know that heh i type slower than hell with one hand I am getty mixed you with names and user IDs i do 35-40 wrds a min Raven are u here? * wacky is brian <^Raven^> no ohh, Mandy reminded me I told her to never give up and she wouldnt let me. her smile is too contagious to turn away from ;o) what about you this year? * PeR0XiDe is james.. Ahalaani im alison <^Raven^> hmmmmmmm...........took a step charlie shared such a wonderful message with us at Thanksgiving what was that? Raven? hmm? o <^Raven^> i'm here think he/she was talkin bout us telling each other our real names * wacky perks ears He showed us the reason to keep going yes <^Raven^> Cornellius ?? judi max annette what about u max? alison Debi cubby james Helen lol Heidi brian Joe? ok mouskateers :) <^Raven^> salam judi lol brian hehe It has not been a good year for me at all but you guys have kept me going many times and I want to thank you for that np thanks all we all help each other we llvoe yu o judo I hope I remember well, I think e could do more well I cant think of a hilite of yur yr judi I got to meet u e? ww lol hehe yes made new friends health is failing though many sorry hun :| Jud i have a / never 2 old 2 learn vave met many beautifull ? but still u had some hilites it disturbed me that the person I mentioned was afraid to talk in the open u did, judi me 2 judi yes deb? They will in time This year I finally adjusted to not working and making/meeting new friends thru internet and chat session :):) they do now coming here is a start any1 scaredd ? helen and I good pals judi: maybe she doesnt trust people very easily.. big change in life attitude haa it's ok judi not everybody is ready t share at the same time judi, you never stopped supporting me and choices i made true i like you too brian :):) glad I know helen and MM aint bad either wants to but afraid she will be ridiculed lol LW is slways good that way lol <^Raven^> bbl you mean me LW? bye Raven *** ^Raven^ has left #disabled-rt lw: yeah I would really like to see our support panel take off this year k judi got it *** simone1 has joined #disabled-rt no charlie either that, or maybe she questions the security of the channel hi :) hey simone good point perox hi simone hi simone hello :) brb so anyone anting to serve on a support type panel let me know howdy judi is any1 scared atr timess me me me me ill do it how dose it work/ me important thing is that they shared with someone, judi it was acompliment to you that they chose you yes well hopefully we can pair up people with disabilities *** Lily has left #Disabled-RT experienced with non experienced etc reaae3 p soundds like a good idea people needing support ith people with similiar conditions Ch you are teaching someone to land 5r3hy] this person might have went to get something to eat and left the PC on lol secrets: ? oh no DEBI she's having a seizure this is Jim, Debi needs to leave ok ok be well thank you keep us posted yes *** Secrets has left irc (Another day, another smile, it was soooo worth it!) oh no how gracious of her husband to let us know judi we gotta slow down ali cant keep up thing is people on support panel have to be for real-and willing to provide open ear not especially advice she getting frustrated Karen its common Jim will take care of her it seem scary yes, at least she's not alone brb yes I called her last time it happened family is used to it i have a friend that has them *** CindyB has joined #disabled-rt I love u judi wish my bio mom was like u secrets is having trouble buying meds right now *** Lily has joined #Disabled-rt thank u bri hi baby I am willing to help on panel too u care abt ppl judi Hi judi: ill do it yes she truly does Bri ok my e-mail is judi@henderson.net if i ever have seizure on line don't worry no denying thatt hiya cindy please e-mail me with your most comfortable area etc why anny ? THINDY how was ur year? careful bri-she'll puke on ya i have had seizures online it scarey Well Bri, I'm healthy, my kids are healthy, I have a wonderful family and wonderful inlaws, guess it is pretty great. which brings up another point CIndy eeewwww yuck cyber-barf! you are lying out your butt well we are all sick as dogs becouse i have seizures sometimes and it is not abig deal for me 2 sick kids one with pne but we are here...hahahaha back ok i here, but watching, screen move too fast hi cyber sis usually not grand mal ok dear ok anny anny i had em this summer it scared me talking to me cindy? :) Yes simone i had peteit mal * simone1 realizes she came in joking again :( personally I ouldn't mind anyone feeling they may need help giving ops phone numbers in case of emergency yes i ocassionally have petit mal, have you had before wacky? so if anyone feels the need to do so please do i made notes, anny, when wacky had seizures on channel several of you have my number-all the ops do mine where caused by meds anny was having many a day except you daniel please let someone know if you need help yes that can be scarey if not used to them but was fine before and am fine now we have strayed guys i so glad but off all meds sorry mamma max I really wud like to hear about your year * wacky hangs head strayed?? off subject sis sorry for the diversion i cant read anyways np oh god I am dating my aunt! lol hahahha not diversion anny-important no love, not aunt uh, do we have to talk about closets? lol you do have a large one i have many new ppl and this chat is the primary reason i am on the net love having you with us max * anny1 checking closet for skeletons lol hehe simone pulling out steamer trunk of a closet lol hugs woolfie Helen I'm glad u shared judi: my closet is a TARDIS! I never realized you had just made that adjustment hehe mine's a warehouse I have to go, bed time...just wanted to say hi and I miss you guys...love ya * wacky found skeleton, so that what that smell is! Night mom maybe we all need to be a little more open-but there is that security issue night babe nite cindy actually mine can be described as a huge underground bunker with a killer cyborg gaurding the entrance. *** CindyB has left irc (Leaving) heh lol simone that's why I thought the support panel might help provide a bit of security how is that? k *** Driveshaf has left #disabled-RT ell people on the support panel will be screened for things like empathy and caring attitude etc gott ago mamma, hugs bye love bye hon count me in bye wacky bye sweetie Oh I see cya brian i am drained energy at zip helen: it's true! and a massive cryogenic system as well to keep the primary system shut down. what Karen? bye wacky gotta pass the emphaty IQ test I was thinking different security ahhh the fakes? be good all whats empathy? sympathy? you too yea fakes? don't get me started :) bye brian empathy is the ability to put yourself in another's place and understand empathy = is with emotional support *** LOG CLOSED: Wed Dec 30 19:06:53 1998